Tuesday, June 12, 2012
And So It Begins
There is a very long story behind my decision to ask for this and I may share some details later, but for now, suffice it to say, this is needed. Nothing we have tried to date has worked.
So last night, I finally did it. I hit send on an email I had been working on for a week, an email of close to 3000 words explaining everything I felt and why I wanted to give this a shot. To say I was scared would be an understatement. To tell the truth, I was so worried how he'd react that after hitting send and alerting Steve to the fact he had email, I immediately skedaddled for the shower and took the longest shower of my life.
I guess I spent all my courage on hitting the send button because it took me forever to get up the nerve to walk out of the bathroom. It's kind of silly because if I hadn't came out, he would have eventually came in there after me, if only to make sure I was okay.
Thankfully, he doesn't think I'm crazy and he appreciates the fact that I care enough that I would be willing to take such a wild leap. So today begins a new stage in our marriage.