Friday, July 20, 2018

Soooo...Boot Camp

So our boot camp was a bust. We had high hopes for reconnecting and getting back on track this week, but ultimately Steve's job sunk us.

We knew he was due to be on call this week, but figured we could work around it. After all, we have to work around that in our normal day to day. But instead of a couple calls all week, he ended up getting 1-2 every single night. It woudn't have been so bad if they'd been close, but it seemed like every single one was at least an hour away so he was gone several hours every time. He's gone on one now in fact.

If that wasn't bad enough, the other tech was out most of the week. He called in one day because he was in the emergency room with his wife, came back to work the next day and then took the rest of the week off because she was having surgery. So Steve has been run ragged trying to do the work of two people this week, which meant going in early and staying late every day.

We've barely saw each other all week. When Steve has been home, he's been exhausted. Needless to say, that put a serious crimp in things. It didn't take long before we threw in the towel on boot camp.

But we did make an effort to take advantage of what little time we did have. We ate dinner together every night, no matter what time he finally made it home. He'd call during the day between jobs and we'd talk for a few minutes. We tested out one of our new toys (a wireless remote control vibe-good concept but it needed some improvements). We even managed a quick Tetris battle (I kicked his butt).

So it wasn't quite the week we'd planned. But that's life I guess.

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

Anybody Still Here?

Not sure if anyone is still looking for posts here after such a long absence, but I thought I'd poke my head out and say hi. It's been a bit crazy around here.

I've had my hands full dealing with my mom. She's not in the best of health to begin with, but shortly after my last post, she started experiencing some new symptoms so I fussed at her until she went to her doctor. The doctor thought it was a minor issue that would resolve itself. It wasn't.

It turned out to be a major issue requiring surgery. Then she developed multiple complications after the surgery. It's taken months of hospital stays, doctor visits and physical therapy to get her well enough she could finally return home to finish her recovery. She's doing better now, but we're looking into finding her a place nearby so I can keep an eye on her.

It's been hugely stressful, especially since I was already dealing with issues with anxiety. Needless to say, being under all that stress for a prolonged period of time made my anxiety a lot worse. I was so focused on everything that was going on with my mom that I failed to pay attention to what was going on with me. I came close to having a nervous breakdown and did end up getting sick enough to require a visit to the doctor.

Now that the crisis has passed, we're working on getting back to normal. Of course, that means dusting DD off and trying to find our rhythm again. That hasn't been without a few challenges. For starters, dealing with my mom meant stepping outside my usual role. I got used to being in charge and making decisions with little or no input from anybody else. Even though there were days I longed for someone else to take over, I'm finding it a little difficult to let go of the reins.  Two, I'm also struggling to regain my emotional balance after months of stress and anxiety. There have been a few blowups.

Steve's brought back our weekly check-ins. He's also came up with some fun ways to remind me who the boss is. I'm not going to lie. I'm enjoying being reminded.😁 We're also planning another boot camp since we're going to have the house to ourselves for a week. It's been several years since we've done one, but we both found it beneficial the last time.